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Lust, As They Say

A Compliment for Markson E.
Just for fun, I would like to write something for our birthday boy. A tribute... just a little slice of compliment.
I really don't know much about this guy, but I just wanna share what I know. I just wanna share the things that makes him different to any Markson surviving in this planet.
Before I set foot to the alleged(haha, weird term) Academic Paradise of the South, CMU, I already heard his name. My friend since highschool whose brother resided at Supremo's(boardinghouse where I stay) always nag about his name. She said that there is a cute nursing stud staying in Supremo's named Markson. In my mind, "Hell I care!", but I didn't said that so she kept on nagging about Markson. But I didn't found Markson there, then I just knew he moved to Boystown.
As to Ellen's description, I picture out Markson as a very handsome, masculine, and hot white cutie of College of Nursing. But he fell low to my expectations, I guess. Before the second sem started, my landlady told me that if I would now be open for a roommate, an exboarder named Markson would be my roommate. In my mind, Ellen would really be happy if she heard about this news! But my parents still decided that I would not have any roommate. Well that's okay for me, I'm more comfortable living alone in my room.
When I first saw Markson, my eyes started assessing: he is a short, moderately pimpled guy. He's quite good-looking but, ahem, quite different from the "Hercules-like" description of my friend. I'm really laughing at my room while I'm texting Ellen bout my assessment!
Days moved and I noticed more bout him. He's quite a big eater( as Ellen says), very neat, and, honest to say, but I really thought he's gay. I never had a talk to him for the first four months of us staying in the same roof. But in the last month, March, by the time-being alone, I just found myself talking to him. My first impression: He's kinda cool...not a bad thing if we would be friends.
Suddenly, my assessment changed. He's a guy who I could say kinda picky of friends, but he never turns one down, I believe. He's very nice to my boardmates, whom I find very annoying, and he makes time to have fun with them. He's very transparent as a friend. Like someone who wont be afraid to ask some favor, someone who wont turn down one, and someone who wont be afraid to be frank in front of you. For me, that's a kind of person whom I can say "REAL", not plastic in slang term, because for me, a true friend stabs you in front. He's someone who's eager to share what he have, though somehow he's bossy in a sense, but that isn't a big deal for me. Something I like bout him most, he always let us share with him his fone just to watch PGT.. As what my boardmates say, "Dili sha dalo"... I believe they're right!
As a brother to his sister, I know he's good! I remember he asked me: Carl, unsa kahay tsada na igift sacong manghod ba? Di man gud ko kauli sa iyang graduation. I'm not sure if it's graduation that he said, I cant remember it clearly, but that's the thought. For me, it shows that he really cares more than it shows. If I were him, saying sorry and congratulations to his younger sis would be enough for me. But to him, it shows that he's making it to the point that he could extend his love though he couldn't be there. That's something commendable.
And lastly, as a son, I find him quite good. I remember he shared me something bout his highschool experience about joining a gang. That's really terrible! But in the end, it shows that he respects his parents, though he said at that time he relied to his savings. haha.. And I know he calls his mom Ermat, that's a sign that he's really open to them. And openness is something not all children at teen-hood could assure their parents.
And earlier this morning, we had a short exchange of text messages. I asked him if he already went home then he said he still couldn't. I asked him, for sure you miss your mom now.. he answered "Sobra pa sa mingaw"...That's the time I felt I'm still lucky enough for I had spent Mother's day with my mom but a boy who really loves his mom like Markson simply couldn't.
In totality, for me, he's a fabulous guy. A great, open friend, a caring brother, and a loving son. For sure a friend like him deserves an article of compliment like this.
Personally, I really find him as more than a good friend. He's a "better friend", if that term exists, LOL.. =) That's why just like any other close friends of mine, I waited for 12 am to strike the clock and made it sure to greet him a happy birthday in 12 am sharp. I even tried to called but he's asleep already, then I just smiled for I just want to tell that Ellen would want to extend her greetings through me. She keeps on reminding me that.. haha!
To my dear friend Markson, our God has chose to give you another year to spread more love and plow greener pastures. This year is another roller coaster of smiles and tears, rejoice and disappointment. But there's one thing I just wanna tell you: in this another revolution trip of yours around the sun, don't forget to soar high but kneel to pray, and just keep on ROCKIN'!
My glass of apple juice is now empty, and finally, the download succeed. And shall I say, GOODNIGHT!
Where does that love comes from, Mom?
To do all the things you did,
To be teacher, nurse and counselor
To me, when I was a kid.
I' am Carl Ace, and I'm honest to say that I really haven't reciprocated enough the love of my mom that she's been unceasingly giving to me each day. When my mom was still in college, she is so beautiful and a CMU College of Engineering certified "it" girl. But God's plan it is, she married my dad early, and yah, had me early. She missed everything fabulous that a college diploma promises, but I never heard her regret---that's why I know she do love me, not just because I' am hers, but she loves me coz I' am me.I really wonder where in the world did my mom got the reason for loving me this too long. You know, dogs, they just take care with their puppies for few month then after that, the bitch would just even snob their pups before and some even fuck their own product. Oh I know you know that's not my point but my point is my mom, just like any other mom, could have chose to abort me...or raise me til I'm a toddler then just throw me near a trashcan in a busy city street, like the greasy orphans outside Jollibee. With my very stubborn and sour attitude, if I were my mom, I would not hesitate to flush the cute little young Carl Ace in the toilet.
But my mom never did that. She has been patient for all this time and been a mother for me for all these years. I guess that's the fact that separates her from our pet bitches, and to the bitches who were regular costumers of Mrs. Abortionist.
Be a chauffeur, cook and friend,
Yet find time to be a playmate,
I just can’t comprehend.
She wakes up early every morning to cook my breakfast before I get to school. I believe even my mother would also wish to have a long, beautiful sleep like us but she waives her self interest every morning for me. I even heard some of my friends saying that their mom don't do that for them. They have to cook for their selves as well us they have to wash their own clothes, iron, and fold it. My mom didn't even tasked me to do that.
I have read something from Ramayana, saying जननी जन्मभूमिश्च स्वर्गादपि गरीयसी, this means: the mother is higher than the motherland... even higher than heaven. Of course my mom couldn't give me the things that God in heaven promises but she continuously defy her limits, do everything to provide me my needs, and exhaust her self to give me comfort. That ain't easy, Amen?
That made you come whenever I'd call,
Your inexhaustible love, Mom
And I thank you for it all.
As what I said, she don't love me for I' am from her and I' am hers. She loves me for I' am Carl Ace; once the baby who almost took her life while she's giving me life; once the child who deprived her her wants just to admit my fragile body to the hospital almost every month; once the kid who she protects every time my dad couldn't be patient to my faults anymore; once the youngster who she assisted as I' am changing from a kid to a teen; and now the teen who force her to slave herself to work every moment of her life in order to grant me the very expensive key to my dreams; and always will be the CARL ACE who made her tears fall as my first cry was heard; and the first reason why she has to hold on to the vow she exchanged with with my dad.
I admit she isn't perfect. She couldnt afford all my wants, and sometimes, she fails to understand what's within my mind that I' am afraid to speak, but there's something that would always forget me my disappointments towards her, and that's the fact that she never fails to express to me not just through words but also through actions that one eternal and ever evolving-consummate-unadulterated-basic-essential-crucial-necessary-affectionate emotion called mother's love.
To my mom, I love you though your text messages to me are all in capital letters and lacks period every time, though you always ask stupid and nonsense questions to me, though you always cut my dreams every morning, and though you always murmur same lines every time I ask for new jeans and my allowance. Simply because, I'm nowhere to be find without you.. I love you mom!

Summertime Blues...byebye!
Footnote to our Parents
When I was eight, I was forced to learn how to cook rice! How to wash plates! How to clean the house! How to fix my parent's bed! How to feed the dogs! How to baby sit! And most of all, how to do things the way they wanted! My dad gives me bruises every time I rank lower than the first at school! He rarely give me the toys I want and what I hate most? He always slap, punch, and kick me near to death every time I complain!
However, my younger brother whose turning 11 this July( or June, I'm not sure.hihi) has never learned even to boil water and has flunked from 2nd place down to a rank somewhat just like disgrace from the mark I left at my elementary Alma Mater! Whenever he's not in his bike, he sticks on the computer, even playing while eating( while me before, I gain bruises courtesy by my dad whenever I eat in-front of the TV)! And what freaks me out most? I never seen my dad hazed him for that! He is highly tolerated and every time I scream "IT'S UNFAIR!!!!" I end up angry but locked in my room waiting for the new sets of bruise to heal.
My mother always say, "You're actually fortunate because you learned all of those now that your still young. You'll gonna need that in the future!". Say whatever mom! Those things aren't hard to learn and my brother could actually learn that if he want when he get old for just a single overnight! What I want is for him to experience all of those hellish commands, NOW!
Oh well oh well. They wont hear my cry after all. They don't have an access to internet. So this revolt is worthless :).
But this might be one of the reason why I grew up near but not emotionally close to my family and somehow, rebellious. I had served my family well since the day I became fully rational, but I don't think I'm receiving enough benefit. When I was in highschool, my parents seems to treat me like an innocent, pure, and super baryotic(new word! Pertaining to something so rural) lass that who have to take good care of my virginity(as if I still got it >:] ). Why? because they said that I have to go home before the sun sets. FREAK! And because of that, I missed so much of my youth. When I'm at home, I always have to man the store, and spend all my day waiting for the f*****ng peso to come. See how I was deprived of my youth?
I hope the parents of today's youth would learn understand their children. They don't have to spoil them, they just got to go beyond what they thought of proper disciplining of their teens. It's not good to the side of the child to grow deprived of the happiness he deserves, remember we only sail to thesame life once. We understand you, our parents, but you don't have to be OA, you can take good care of us with out suffocating us. uhm, and just be fair. :)
LOOOOOVE!

Love!
Anong napala co sa LOVE?
Pimples!
Eyebags!
at broken hart! napuyat aco't di nakapagstudy sa trigo!
bagsak tuloy ako!
GAAABAAA!
ttoooogsh! back to the real world (hey! that's still real!) !
For all that who know me and still doesn't know me, I'm Carl Ace, Carl, Ace, Rikdoy, C.A., Dhoie, Junjun, Junnibellx( well, i hate this one :< ). YFC brother and a freshman bagtik CMU-AN taking up Doctor of Veterinary Medicine, gwapo( Wiiih?! deh ngaH!) , but gwapa rin daw, loves gray, black, brown, country songs (except everything from Inday Taylor Swept), friends, facebook, Bible, sleeping, cheating, foods, more foods, heavy foods, and hates RNB, gays, and love stories, and status: drastically in pain due to severe GUGMATITIS(inflammation of the heart better known as broken heart).
Jolly as may seem, but I'm not. Some new friends see me plastic but that's kinda real no! no! for there's such a characteristic of a living organism called "ADAPTATION"(remember your Bio-onse), and I'm just doing it all the time; at least you know i'm "LIVING" and ain't no PLASTIC(ang wa kagets di malangit.).
My classmates find me noisy and parrotish(new word!hihi) because I always punch that whole line of nestea's add, even making my own version like that's one above. They find that sometimes funny but now a mere nuisance and another contribution of mine to the geeks' greatest enemy, noise pollution but ah-uh, I ain't absurd to rephrase and paraphrase that line over and over again for no reason, of course I got one. I love to punch that because that's also a one-billion question of my mind, WHY?!(sir duropan? pinagmanahan?), why love is somehow I find worthy enough to burn time for but what had it done to me, just a gugmatitis.
If you had read my previous blog post I published last year, you'll see how love caused me sooo much pain and led me to this incurable disease. Still the same, praying same line over and over again, in meals and before sleeping hours. However, I just find things clearer by now.
I consulted friends, talked to my parents, and done every way possible to take me out from my own life's upheaval. But no one advised me better that the Bible did. Some verses in 1 Corinthians and 1 John made me understand love more.
Love is something due to chemical reactions in your body led by some pheromones if you let the chemistry department define it for you. However, I find love as something that flared up from just a mere infatuation that might end you up to an everlasting relationship(that's every lovers wish to have), or the other way around, gugmatitis.
It is a great feeling of admiration and everything beautiful under the sun that you want to express with all your might. However, if your as unfortunate as me, you'll find out that love is an ecstasy you want to achieve but not at all times your entitled to avail it. That's the time, if you're misguided, that you'll start hating love as if it's some sort of evil or maybe a 3 unit sociology with no field-trip(i hate it!).
Remember: Whoever does not love does not know God, because God is love. (1 John 4:18)
Many of teens like me experience a forbidden love. In my case, I'm inlove with someone I nicknamed "Spongebob", who is a 'he', and also in love with my closest friend( and here in CMU, a close friend is your family here;) ). Yes its so painful and I'm asking God every night to remove this feeling magically just like how it came to me. Yet no answer like"yes" has come.
By time, I just accepted that that love isn't meant to exist(even in fairy tales) and what I need to do is to guide myself rightly out of this chemical reaction. Though there's no more happiness I could ever cry for than winning this losing battle, I still opt to quit. There's no sense fighting for and proving that I could love better for even the "Law of Nature" hinders me to achieve what I want.
I have given my best, even sacrificed my pride and dignity for that love. But I don't regret that, for in this whole process of moving on , I got lessons that any books wont teach me. Now at least I had established my principles bout loving, and I know within me that I'm near to be ripe enough to have a love that would last and have a someone to love that would treasure my worth.
Lesson learned: Our heart is in the left side of our body. That is something that tells not all love is right, yet all real love, right or wrong, is hard to get rid of. That must be unfair, but this is all part of my journey, the memories and pain, and God would sum it up to make me ripe enough, a Carl Ace that's "full-packed", for short, ready na!
A Dog's Life
It is pain. It is suffering and grief.
The life of a dog is a dog's life.
Full of fear and gnashing of teeth.
God/dog, dog/god.
Palindromes and dreams of nod.
God/dog, god/dog.
And all I hear leaves me agog.
So lift up a leg to the Hound of Heaven,
to the Great Dog Star in the sky.
Sit up and beg to be forgiven,
and let this sleeping dog lie.
God/dog, god/dog.
It's heady stuff, all cloud and fog.
God/dog, god/dog.
With feet of clay and mind in bog.
The Great Dog Star is our image;
he is made as one of our own.
He doesn't wear clothes and has a wet nose,
and thinks nothing of sucking the bone.
God/dog, god/dog.
Speaks from high: a monologue.
God/dog, god/dog.
In cunning plans, we're only cogs.
The life of a dog is a dog's life.
It is cruel. It is brutal and brief.
The life of a dog is a dog's life.
Thrown a bone to atone like a thief.
God/dog, god/dog.
Like unicorns and golliwogs.
God/dog, god/dog.
A chant easy as falling off logs.
To the Great Dog Star, pay homage.
And croon to a singular moon.
If the night is primal and savage,
obey and bay in good tune.
God/dog, god/dog.
I've seen machine and catalogue.
God/dog, god/dog.
A keen design to whip and flog.
God/dog, dog/god.
It sounds absurd, and awfully odd.
God/dog, dog/god.
Share the word and spare the rod.
So lift up your snout to the Hound of Heaven,
lift up your heart and growl.
Show your respect for the Hound of Heaven,
just throw a ginsberg and howl!
by: David Smith
83 dogs and puppies siezed by Sask. SPCA
Dozens of dogs, including five litters of puppies, were seized by RCMP and the Saskatchewan SPCA recently after officials received complaints about animals in distress.
According to police, on June 4th authorities went to a property in the Leslie area, east of Saskatoon and removed the animals.
"They were not being cared for," Frances Wach, executive director of the Saskatchewan SPCA, said Wednesday. "Because in order for us to take the animals into our care or seize them, they have to be in distress."
Wach said the animals did not have proper food, water or shelter.
The SPCA said it received a number of complaints about the property and the state of the dogs.
RCMP Const. Jim Ferguson was one of the officers at the scene when the dogs were seized.
"Most were outside, tied up basically on leashes," Ferguson said Wednesday. "I believe a couple dogs were located inside a residence on the property."
After the dogs were taken away, they were put in the care of the Saskatoon SPCA. The animals appeared to be huskies, wolfhounds and malamutes.
One of the dogs died and the director of the shelter says they now have 82 dogs to look after.
"We did take care of all their parasite concerns," Tiffiny Koback said. "[We] vaccinated them, provided them with medications to treat internal and external parasites."
On Wednesday, the SPCA said they need help because they have never had to deal with so many dogs all at once.
Koback says donations would be welcomed as they are spending about $800 per day on the new arrivals.
As well, volunteers are needed to help provide basic care for the dogs.
"Their coats are filthy," Koback said. "A lot of them are matted [and] there's fecal matter and urine in their coats. They're in need of a good cleanup."
According to a news release from the RCMP, charges of neglect of animals and causing distress to animals have been laid against a woman from Leslie, Saskatchewan.
April Irvine is to appear in provincial court in Wadena on June 24th.
Police added that other charges may be laid.
CBC News was also told that the owner of the animals has gone to court seeking the return of the animals. That matter is expected to be before a judge next week.
Leslie, Saskatchewan, is about 230 kilometres east of Saskatoon.
Read more: http://www.cbc.ca/canada/saskatchewan/story/2010/06/09/sk-animals-seized-spca-1069.html#ixzz17UI6lU00
Whose to Celebrate in Christmas?

Matthew 1 vs. 21: And she shall bring forth a son, and thou shalt call his name Jesus; for he shall save his people from the sins
In the next couple of weeks, Christians will mark the birthday of Jesus Christ, on what is popularly known as Christmas day. What is the significance of Christmas?
Jesus is the essence of Christmas, as a matter of fact, the word Christmas is a derivation of the word ‘Christ’. If we are celebrating Christmas, it is therefore important to know and believe in the person after whom the day was named.
As shown in the biblical passage above, Jesus Christ came on a salvage mission, to save mankind from their sins. Christmas should therefore be a time for repentance for those who have not accepted God’s plan of salvation for mankind, and a time for sober reflection and rededication for those all those that have accepted the Lordship of Jesus Christ.
Jesus was born about 2007 years ago to save you from your sins. The good news is that his salvation programme did not end 2007 years ago. He is still alive ready to save you from your sins. God has given a grace of 2007 years for anyone willing to be saved to come unto him. As Christmas rolls in, it should be a time of remembrance of Gods plan of salvation.
If you do not have Christ in your life, then you be celebrating Christmas without the presence of the Celebrant in your life.
The essence of Christmas is therefore to accept Christ, the celebrant into your life and invite him to dine with you for the rest of your life. The good news is that there is a greater Christmas in heaven, a Christmas whose celebration do not end in a day. Only the redeemed can participate in this everlasting Christmas.
To register your name as a redeemed, repent of your sins, accept Jesus Christ as your Lord, and live a life of complete holiness. Make this confession:
Jesus Christ, I welcome you to my life as this Christmas, I accept Gods plan of salvation through you and accept you as my Lord and Saviour. Come into me and rule me. In Jesus name I pray. (Amen).
source:http://christonline.wordpress.com/2007/12/09/the-essence-of-christmas/

