That night. That night when you searched for fame, but what you’ve reaped is only regrets. Regrets for that night full of lust bridged your life to the world where you would gain nothing but pain.
Can’t remember it? Or you just don’t want to recall it? Let me just tell you the story, so that you would feel the pain, over and over again.
Young. Fresh. A newly bloomed flower. An Aphrodite that both butterflies and bees can't resist the beauty you possess. Fifteen, that’s how young you are at that night, but you wasted everything good God stored for you.
With your classy friends, you went into a nightclub, a haven for alcohol and drug addicts, unfaithful husbands, prostitutes, and most of all, teens like you girls that believes fame is at hand when you get involve to sex. Well, it’s your first time to enter there, but unfortunately, it’s also your last.
As expected, you caught the most handsome stranger in that club with your tempting smiles and stares. Remember how excited are you when he invited you to go to the dark room? Like any other 1-night-only pairs, your heart seemed to jump as high as the roof above in excitement to do that 1-night-only love. You may not know it, but the walls and the floor of the dark room has been witnesses of the nights when people like you achieved satisfaction after their thirst of love is quenched. But these walls and floor also witnessed how lives started to became miserable after two souls played with the fire of the Lord of Evils in the bed especially designed for people like you.
Without any hesitation, you let the stranger’s lips undressed your God’s temple. Behind all the noise of heart-digging music and evil thoughts roaming from ear to ear from the floor beneath, your body seemed to be hungry for each other’s heat, relentlessly exploring the torsos both of you bestowed for one another. The heat stood to its zenith then both of you started performing the sacred dance of love, defenselessly desecrating your own temples.
The night seemed to be too long, until the both of you fell asleep. But when you woke up, the man who bloodshed your purity, is no longer by your side. At that very moment, I know how you felt. You felt that you were used, played, and wasted for what? For nothing, right. You realized that 1-night only love is only pleasurable on the night you did love-game, after that, you would be just trashed, like a mentholated gum spitted for there’s no taste of menthol at all.
Tell me, did you feel that you’re famous after what you did? I believe you felt you’re famous, why? Because you’re already known in the whole campus as a bitch, prostitute, one-night-stand girl, and soon, a disgrasyada. Did you like it?
Yes, young momma, I’m the fruit of that mishap. Afraid to be nicknamed as abortionists’-pet, you decided to move to the rural face of the world. Should I be thankful for you didn’t abort me?
Nine months passed and a healthy baby boy was welcomed to the planet. Bad for me, for I won’t be living as bright as you wished.
A hands-on mom, that’s what you want your very disappointed parents to think about you. So there you are, trying hard to look as a responsible single parent. You even did breastfeeding to me. But you shouldn’t have done that. Now, the evils of the underworld must be laughing at you now.
3 months passed, and I became thin and sickly. It seemed that I’m attracting diseases incessantly. Cough and skin sores occur again after one is healed. You became worried so you brought me to a doctor.
Then the findings of the test say I got HIV (human immunodeficiency virus). Puzzled? Of course mom, I got it from you. And you got this disease from that stranger you first made love with. I guess this disease is the answer of your persistent dry cough and your sore throat that you suffer for these past six months. Puzzled again? You acquired HIV when you had unprotected sex with my unknown father, but the symptoms of the virus have just appeared. That’s because of the window period, a definite time, in your case, its six months, where you already got HIV, but even if you test yourself over and over again, results would still be negative. It’s because the anti-bodies just occurred after your window period, that’s what the doctor said.
See what you have done? Not just your life, but also my life became miserable because of your craziness. So now, shall we just despondently sit here and watch the same moon who witnessed how you guided your life to this misery and wait until this HIV turns to AIDS and grant us the most painful death that you deserve?
